A Few Not So Proud Words

Posted by poker kat

October 28, 2008

Poker, lately, has been a struggle and the worst part (or maybe the best) is that I’ve been playing a lot. I really love playing. There’s been so much going on in my personal life in the past few months and poker has become my place I go to.. escape.. yeah maybe.. I still feel like I’ve been playing well but I’ve really been losing a lot. I’m a bit disgusted with myself..

After reading Bellatrix post I decided I want to vent (or mope) a bit about my horrible losing streak. She reminded me I need to keep focusing on learning more and more- especially when things are not going well. Step back and regroup. I’m not sure why I’m losing so much lately. I’ve played a lot of tournaments recently maybe that’s a big part of it. I’ve cashed in a few but nothing great. A little better than even money at best. Cash games are meh but I’m having a hard time leaving with winnings (partly because of my personal situation and not wanting to be at home very often). Excuses.. maybe but I’m playing a lot with not great focus or intentions.

Actually online I’ve had decent success. So I can’t complain there. With my need to be out though.. I’ve been at the Commerce or the Bike 3 days a week. The other days I’m at the gym.. which is great. I lost 25lbs in that last 7 weeks. So life has been a little strange. I need to stop using poker as a vice or escape and get back to playing the way I used to.. I watch myself getting sloppy, aggressive and gambling more. I’ve got to get my control and focus back. Let’s hope that starts to make things balanced again.

I apologize for the depressing post.

Hey, at least there wasn’t a bad beat story though..