How can this happen?

Posted by bellatrix

May 26, 2009

I’m usually a very level headed person! At the poker tables I shrug off the bad beats easily and can maintain my focus very well. It’s then only even more discomforting that every now and then (about 3 times a year), I have those days where EVERYTHING becomes unhinged. And I don’t know why. It’s like a pendulum that is swinging very little, but every now and then it just goes off. Like an earthquake – disastrous.

That’s what happened to me last Thursday. During the day, I lost about 200$ HU. Against a competent player, so it was totally my fault for keeping playing. That was fine and I had already forgotten about it. Then in the evening, I lost another 300$ playing HU. This time, it was against a total fish and his chat was horrible. I can deal with people cursing, calling me cu** and other words. But this guy actually was giving me lessons or saying he doesn’t understand my play. I don’t actually know what set me off so much, but I was…

Chasing… going to 10/20. Playing against a competent opponent. Losing 65BB (1300$). Yes, bad luck. But also idiot me that chasing underrolled playing good opponents, trying to get lucky. What the hell was I thinking???? Got back about 100$ playing 5/10. And that was it! At the end of the night I was down 1700$ in one day. Gah! I’m such an idiot. Back to rebuilding.

And the remorse that lingers around for days and days is bad too. It’s like a bad hangover. Sigh! You vow: never again! Maybe I would be happier if I tilted a little bit every now and then instead of these mega-tilt sessions…

Meh! What can you do? The past is the past. Ok, blogged about it, should not continue to fret about it!

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